I heard today is his last day working near my place..
I still wish that, its not true.
Please stay there. I want you to be there. Because you are my moral.
I want to see you everyday.
I feel relieve when i see you.
I look around looking for you when i went there.
At least today, i saw you look at me too.
Muahahahahahh kahakahakahakahahkkahh
Moral: spirit booster
Sebenarnya kan..
Aku tertanya tanya ni.
Kalau kita buat ma abah kita terasa, kita berdosa kan.. konfem 100%.
Cane pulak kalau ma abah kita yang buat kita terasa. Memang la kita maafkan. Tapi bab kata sape tah, "kita dah pecahkan cermin tu, pastu kita cantum balik, tapi tetap ada kesan retakan". Macam tu jugak dengan hati kita.
So.. erm.. entahla..
Assalamualaikum n good evening..
Today i'm gonna share about my cooking spirit!......ermm
Well, i love to eat. Look at my body~~~o no..i don't share my picture here T_T ..
Just know that, i'm a food lover. But not a fanatic food lover. Just a moderate food lover who doesn't really waste her money on food only. I mean, i dont go to expensive restaurants(i will if someone want to pay for me), hipstersss spots or whatever that cost money.
Never went to cafe with expensive coffee, cakes, steaks, or whatnot. No kenny rogers, no starbucks, no oldtown whitecoffee.. no menate.. i'm not that loaded. He he he.
But i will spent my money on baking ingredients. Rm40 to bake a cheseecake, rm40 to bake a brownies is okay. But later i will think..o my..what a waste...nope..just kidding.. i feel the satisfaction of making my own not perfect cakes. At least my mom said my cakes were delicious. Thats enough.
I'm not here to share about my baking skills. I'm here to share my cooking skills.
Sorry...i'm not a skilled cook. I just cook when i feel like cooking. And most of the times, i failed. I mean, not most of the times. Sometimes...i'm just bad at cooking.
Look at the picture below. Its ikan cencaru sumbat, bakar. Its my first time cooking this dish. I learn the recipe from google. I usually eat it at the stall, somewhere in Malaysia. But its my first time eating this kind of dish in this house. The most important thing is that, i cooked it!!and its a success!!
One of my friends used to ask me, "do you know how to cook?" ..well i cant really answer that question because i'm not sure. I can cook, but i need recipes. I cant remember a single recipe. I mean the difficult one.
I'm quite confident to cook anything require frying, deep fry or grilled. But i failed miserably if the dishes involve coconut milk, soup or any watery kind of dishes. I used to failed at cooking tom yum. I failed to cook vege soup. Never cook any kind of food involving the coconut milk. Never!
I wish my future husband can do that for me.. ha ha ha
And i hate ajinomoto.
And my mom love it
Look at the picture..macam sedap jer kan?biase jer... kurang masin tu..
Assalamualaikum..
Its 12.30am and i just got back from my friend's house. Rumah dia depan rumah aku je. Tapi ni baru kali ke 2 aku pi lepak rumah dia. Kali pertama 4hari lepas. Hari aku cabut gigi tu.
N harini topik lebih kurang jer. Tapi ada sikit penambahan. Pasal mak ayah kami.. the difference between our parents' parenting.(betul ke bi aku?)
Cenggini. Masa kecik2 dulu, aku agak susah nak keluar jalan2 keliling kampung. Kalau ada pon jarang2. N yang jarang2 tu jugak la, tiap kali keluar, nanti ada kakak or abang tolong panggil balik umah. Mak suruh balik. Sama la macam adik aku p jalan2, aku yang kena panggil dorang balik rumah.
N mak aku, kalau tak kena dengan apa yang dia nak, dia akan pukul anak2 dia.
Berbeza dengan kawan aku ni. Masa kecik, ma dia bagi dia jalan2. Keluar 2 orang dengan sorang lagi budak laki(aku baru tau kejap tadi). Kalau kena tegur pun, secara elok teguran dia. Bukan macam singa nak makan orang(gaya mak aku)
Tapi bila dilihat cara didikan dulu dengan kesan yang berlaku pada aku n kawan aku sekarang ni, aku sangat bersyukur. Why? Sebab kawan aku kena panggil balik dok umah walaupun dah dapat kerja elok kat kl sana. Ma dia risau. Balik kerja kul 11 malam. Sapa tak risau. N kawan aku suka keluar malam2 dengan kawan2 dia. Lagi la mak dia risau.
Berbeza dengan aku, aku prefer kerja di sekitar kelantan. Ada pape, senang aku nak balik. N mak aku percaya aku takkan buat benda2 pelik or xpatut seperti lepak malam2, keluar dengan lelaki atau sebagainya.
Kalau kawan aku bangun tidor lambat, dia kena bebel walaupun dah berumur 24tahun. Mak aku tak. Dia tau anak dia balik kampung time offday, memang nak balik berehat. Sapa ganggu rehat dia, hadapla moody dia.. keh keh..
N aku tak lagi perlu disuruh buat itu ini. Kalau aku nak buat aku akan buat tanpa perlu disuruh. Ada jer mak aku suruh. Tapi jarang dah.
N now see, aku tenang kurang stress bila balik rumah. Stress bila ditempat kerja saja.
Kawan aku tengah stress sebab mak dia taknak bagi dia buat macam2(no need to explain what are they) . Dia nak balik kl. Dia suka kl.
Aku ni kl pon xpernah sampai .keh.
K goodnight.
Assalamualaikum.
Hai everybody!!!
Feeling good today.. not great..just good..why?? Let me tell you a story about my plans vs what actually happened to me, today.
Actually 3 days ago i felt something stuck in my gums. Aku try korek korek gusi n gigi aku guna jari. Pastu rasa macam gigi patah. Guess what? Memang gigi aku patah.harey. gigi aku rapuh..aku try korek2 lagi.. sampai 1/4 dari gigi tu terkeluar. Gigi tu gigi geraham paling hujung belah kanan, kat bawah. Tak sakit pon. Tapi aku rasa memang gigi tu dah tak dapat diselamatkan dah. So aku plan balik kampung(offday hari isnin) alu nak cabut gigi tu.
So, semalam aku kerja halfday. Pukul 1.10p.m aku gerak balik pasir mas. Pukul 2.10p.m lebih kurang aku sampai.
Mak aku kalut dok masak, sebab memang aku spisis kalu sampai rumah, terus masuk dapur cari makanan. Semalam dia ingat aku sampai lewat, dia pon tak masak. Sampai jer kat rumah, mak aku terus masak nasi n goreng ikan n ayam n celur pucuk ubi kayu n rebung. Sedaaap. Sebelum tu, kat tempat kerja, 1 apa pon aku tak makan. Fikiran berkecamuk. Dah settle problem tempat kerja, baru boleh pikir pasal makan. (Aku minum air masak jer).
So malam semalam aku plan la apa nak buat hari ni.
1) gi hospital lati, tengok boleh tak nak cabut gigi on the spot. Mana la tau kot2 kena buat appointment duluke. Kalau boleh nak cuci n simen mana2 patut. Ni baru nak survey. Aku plan nak cabut lepas aku settle plan aku yang kat bawah ni dulu.
2) pergi bank, ambik sejumlah wang untuk bayar ptptn. Ni bulan ke 5 aku bayar. Setiap bulan aku bayar rm180.
3) pergi pejabat ptptn di plaza serakai mas. Area kfc tu. Recommended ok. Staf dia semua ok setakat aku pergi berurusan ni. Kalau tanya, tak de la nak bagi jawapan was2 or tak menjawab soalan or rasa ditipu. Aku plan nak tanya pasal, "saya tak boleh nak cek baki pinjaman secara online" gitu.
4) singgah di zonria pasir mas untuk tukar baju mak aku. Adik aku beli saiz kecik. Mak tak boleh pakai.
5) pergi hospital untuk cabut gigi
6) pergi bengkel kereta. Abah aku cakap, lampu plat kerete kat belakang rosak.
What actually happened...
pergi hospital, tanya akak nurse kat situ,
Me: akak, rawatan apa boleh buat kat sini hari ni?
Nurse: cabut gigi jer boleh. Kalau nak cuci gigi, simen atau wat benda lain, kena wat appointment dulu.
Me: saya nak cabut gigi lah kalau macam tu.
Nurse: pernah datang sini ke sebelum ni?
Me: pernah, masa sekolah dulu.
Nurse: lama dah. Nak ic awak.
Sedang dia nak daftar aku, baru aku terfikir, kalau aku cabut gigi, cane aku nak pergi bank, pejabat ptptn. Mesti sakit. So, aku cakap kat akak nurse tu.
Me: kak, pukul berapa tempat ni tutup?
Nurse: pukul 5
Me: rehat?
Nurse: 1 hingga 2
Me: kejap lagi la saya datang kak, saya ada urusan sikit kat pasir mas.
Nurse: okay (senyum)
Masa tu dalan pukul 9.30am.
Aku pon pergi pasir mas. Pergi bank, amik duit, n pergi pejabat ptptn. Kat pejabat ptptn aku tanya macam2. Dah banyak benda nak tau kan. Seb baik abang tu melayan jer. Keh.
Then aku singgah kat smo bookstores. Tengok2 novel seram terkini. Tapi hampa. Tak ada yang berkenan.
Then aku gi zonria pasir mas tukar baju mak n beli barang aku (panty!!!) dah dekat 5tahun tak beli panty baru..kah!!! Dah sape suruh tak hilang or koyak. Guna la mana yang ada kan?
Waktu tu dah 10.40am. Aku tengok jam sebab takut dekat pukul 12, tak elok cabut gigi kan? Darah banyak keluar. Ye ke?
Terus menuju ke hospital lati. Sambil tengok2 mana stesen minyak ada pam tayar. Tayar kete depan aku macam kurang angin jer. Tapi hampa.
Terus lagi ke hospital lati. Seb baik xdak orang. Time tu no.0029 aku dapat no.0030.
Then masuk bilik rawatan, doktor laki yang rawat aku. Tinggi orangnya, putih dari aku (he), ada jambang, kelantanese, peramah, sedap mata memandang gitu. Dia pakai baju belang2, sama macam shawl aku. Keh.
Doktor: apa masalah awak?
Me: gigi geraham saya patah. Yang hujung sekali. Ingat nak cabut
Doktor: patah? Sakit tak?
Me: tak
Doktor: aik, tak sakit?
Me: sikit jerla sakit.
Doktor: meh nak tengok
Lepas dia tengok..
Me: ke tak payah cabut doktor?
Doktor: kena cabut dah, sebab, nak simen pon xboleh dah.
Me: kena bedah tak doktor?
Doktor: (sengih) tak perlu bedah, gigi awak normal jer.
Dia pon amik jarum, aku tengok jarum tu. Perghh! Panjang n tajam siakk!!!
Tusukan pertama tu adala rasa sakit sikit. Yang pertama tu dia cucuk agak lama, lebih 15saat kot. Kotla.
Yang kedua dia nak cucuk, dia cakap, "yang ni sakit sikit tau" aku emm kan jer.
N memang sakit betul sampai mata belah kanan aku tertutup. Tapi doktor suruh bukak mata. Keh.
Thwn dia suruh keluar dulu, kumur2, bagi rasa kebas, nanti dia panggil balik. Then aku tunggu kat luar tu. Time tu la aku dengar bunyi budak laki menjerit kuat gila kat bilik rawatn tu. Hahaha. Macam orang kena histeria pon ada.
N aku mula rasa kebas. Gusi, lidah, pipi, bibir semua xde deria rasa dah.
Then dia panggil aku masuk. Doktor tanya, "rasa kebas tak" aku cakap "ya". Then dia ada sentuh2 guna alat dia kat sekitar gusi aku, n tanya, "rasa sakit tak?". Aku cakap "tak".
Then aku nampak dia amik pengcungkil. Dia try cungkil gigi aku. Tak tercabut jugak. Dia amik pengcungkil lagi besar. Tak tercabut jugak. Dia cakap, "payah gigi ni, kuat" then dia amik macam playar gitu, dia tarik gigi aku, gigi aku patah sikit, aku dengar dia cakap, "gigi awak rapuh ni". Tapi still tak tercabut jugak. Lepas tu dia amik playar yang dok jauh sikit dari dia, dia goyang2 sikit gigi aku. Pastu dia tarik. Yang ni dia tarik, aku rasa macam rahang aku nak tercabut. Sakit derr. Dah tercabut gigi tu, dia cakap kat nurse2 yang ada kat situ, "patutla patah, tengok akar dia". Pastu aku tengok gigi aku. Aku cakap kat dia, "nak simpan gigi tu boleh?". Dia cakap, "boleh x ada masalah". Then i say thank you. N keluar. Pastu aku wat appointment nak gi cuci gigi. Tapi tarikh available akhir bulan 8. Hmm. Lambat.
Then aku balik rumah. Tengok kunci rumah tak de. Ingat mak aku dok lepak kedai depan rumah. Tu kedai n rumah kawan masa kecik aku. Setakat dia bukak kedai tu, tak pernah aku lepak kat situ. Antisosial sangat aku ni.
Dari jauh aku nampak 2 3 orang pakcik dok kat kedai tu. Aku jalan ke arah dorang tu, semua pandang macam aku orang asing. Taula aku jarang keluar rumah. Aku tanya dorang, "ma nor takdak ka?". Dorang cakap takda. Aku pon lepak la kat situ. Kawan aku pon ada kat situ.
Kitorang pon borak2 kat situ. Macam2 topik la keluar. Antaranya mengimbau kenangan lalu. Kami main masak2 dalam bangsal kat rumah aku. Main sorok2. Pergi balik sekolah sesama. Main hantar2 surat. N topik terkini pasal kerja aku, pasal dia berhenti kerja sebab mak abah dia tak bagi dia dok jauh. Pasal pakwe dia(jiran sekampung) yang couple lebih 4tahun tapi tiba2 putus bila si lelaki tiba2 nak kawen. Pasal pakwe terkini dia. Pasal kenduri kawan2. Pasal kawan sekolah rendah yang sekarang sangat hensem. Pasal kenduri rumah abang aku minggu depan. Aku ajak dia ikot sekali. Pasal lesen kereta. Pasal satria aku. And lots of other topics. Best pulak bila dapat berjumpa begini.
Mak dia ajak makan m minum. Tapi aku kan cabut gigi. Tak boleh. Walaupun perut lapar.
Then ada anak sepupu aku datang, aku tak tau la dia buat2 tak kenal or memang tak kenal. Lain sangat ke pakaian aku harini? So i guess dia bergurau.
Then i went home when my daddy off work. Tak lama kemudian, kakak n abang ipar Aku sampai rumah. Dia nak beranak dah.
Yeay!!!!nak dapat anak sedara!!!!
K bye
Assalamualaikum
Feel like quitting my job. But honestly i cant. I need money. I need it. I cant stop.
I told you before, i'm not sure if this job fit me well or not.
One by one a bad thing happen. I know, Allah is trying to test me. Yes He help me and give me a solution. He gives me strength, He gives me a sight to something i cant see before, He let me see, who is beside me when i'm facing difficulties. I see the true colour. I see a supportive people around me.
And now, i need to motivate myself. There are a whole bunch of nice people out there. Go explore it Aini!!! And i should never give up. Learn from mistakes. God!!! Why i always commit mistakes. WHY????
I hate it so much. I am so careless. I forget things easily.
I learn a lot. But there are a whole lot other things that i need to learn.
Allah must have tested me yesterday to make me realized that, He was always there, waiting for me to talk to Him. He must have miss me so much. He must have miss looking at me who is crying for mistakes i've done, begging Him for help, seeking forgiveness from Him.
I am your humble servant. I hope i'm not only talk to you when i'm in need of your help.
I'm so ungrateful.
Hehe. Seriously... mula2 menaip, sebenarnya nak tulis pasal benda lain. Pastu terus tukar topik.
Nampak tak kepala otak aku ni berkecamuk. Macam kerja jugak. Ape benda tah masalah otak aku ni. Habes bergelimpangan. Nak buat tu tu, tapi buat ni. Nak cakap tu, tapi cakap ni.
Sleepy. Goodnight...its 13th of syawal today..my first day of period. Lepas period baru nak puasa 6 kot. Eh..
Night~~
Assalamualaikum n a very good morning.
I started typing at 11.50p.m on 6th july n i'm sure will finish this on the next day, 7th july.
I'm getting older now. There is lesser excitement or joy of celebrating hari raya.
I work until 11p.m on the previous day. The customers were so crowded.
I got some eyesore. I went to nearby clinic. The doctor gave me the "mc". Urging me to leave work. She afraid i would spread the virus. At that time, i'm quite sure, the monitor would not let me leave work easily.
So, i told my monitor. She kept telling me, "there are so many customers"..she didn't say not to leave work. But i know what she was trying to say. Fine. I would continue working mam!
My right eye turned to red. I feel some pressure when i tried to bend down.
The mc was useless.
Then i got home (rented house near my workplace, provided by the company) almost 11.30p.m or later. I felt really tired. Working 3 continues day from 9a.m to 11p.m. i stand a lot. Walking around the store, take care of many kinds of people. I took a bath, sit in front of the television and enjoy eating Kentucky Fried Chicken(KFC). Its my reward.
The feeling of laziness is dangerously high at that time. After finished eating, i went to my room and lay on my bed. (Ya i know, its not good for your health to go straight to bed after eating) but i did. Then i realized, my clothes in washing machine is not yet hanged. My angpow were not ready. I forced myself to do it. After finished, i sleep soundly.
I woke up at 5.55a.m. Took a bath, performed my fajr prayer and ready to go home at 6.30a.m. and as usual, it felt really uncompleted if i dont poop. I waited for a few minutes to make sure i poop before driving home. At 6.36a.m i start my 1hour driving home. The traffic is clear. In fact, i took less time driving compared to before. Usually it would take a 1 hour or more. This time it was 50minutes. -feeling accomplished!!
I only drive ↓ 90km/h only.
I got home at 7.26a.m. i went straight to the kitchen to find food. I'm hungry!!! Got nasi dagang gulai ikan tongkol and nasi putih gulai ayam kampung. I put side by side on one plate. It taste marvelous!
Then i ironed my clothes, and told my mom that i'm not going to the mosque, i felt some strange feeling. Some eyesore+some weak body(my body felt numb weirdly+some headache +90% of laziness.
Then i slept. Soundly and peacefully. When i woke up, my mom told me, my neighbor a.k.a my childhood friend was at my home with his wife and daughter. So, i need to give some money. =_=. Its okay. I did plan to give her some money one day. It just that, it was today. I changed to my raya clothes just for them. And it was less than 15minutes.
Then i made some drink. To the people coming to my house. At 11.00a.m i fall asleep again. It was so long. Until 3.30p.m. i woke up and quickly do my zuhr prayer. Then i ate my lunch. Then.....i slept again.
And it felt so satisfying because my mom did not call me for once to serve the people or washed the dishes like i used to do each time on hari raya. Thank you so much for giving me my rest. I dont know what happened to me, but i'm so tired. I never once said that i'm tired during my work. But today is different.
And the sleeping pattern did not end there. At 7.00p.m, i fall asleep again while waiting for maghrib. I woke up at 8.21p.m.
And guess what.. between 3.30p.m to 7.00pm, i had sleep for many times. But got disturbed by my 13 years old cousin, hani (younger sister of azihan). She tried so hard to pop my pimple on my face and rub my scalp to get rid of dandruff. (I dont know i have dandruff, until she checked my head). And it was so painful!!! When i try to shampoo, it hurt a lot! Hahahaha. Bertuah punya budak. I bear with the pain while she was doing it because she tried so hard. And i tried not to hurt her feeling by rejecting her effort.
Then my uncle( hani's father) saw me walking around the house. He asked me, "are you not well? i rarely see you today". I said, "ermm, i'm okay, but i sleep for too long today". He replied, " its because you work too hard". Thank you for understanding me uncle.
Btw.. i dont really work hard. Ermm. I'm not sure myself.
Sometimes, i feel there's nothing i can do well. I dont think my job fit me well.
God, i need to sleep again.
Btw, i saw him wearing brown outfit. My raya outfit also brown. Hahahahaahaha.. BENGONG
SELAMAT HARI RAYA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Favorite fruits
1) grapes
2) manggis
3) duku
Fruits i choose not to eat
1) watermelon
2) laici
3) betik
4) dragon fruit
5) buah mata kucing
6) salak
Fruits yang, kalau ada aku makan, kalau xde, aku xkesah pon
1) pisang
2) pineapple
3) strawberry
4) mangga
5) durian
6) plum
7) langsat
8) rambai
9) banyak sangat weiii
*bosan
*27th of ramadhan
*2 more days to go
*ifoundnewcrush
*gajiakumasukxfull
*kenaparamaistafemosemacamjermalamni?
*igotsomeone'sphonenumber
*takmudahnakbuatsemuaorangsukakita
#goodnight
