My sister named mekpa

Assalamualaikum n good morning everyone..

I've wrote many times before, but i accidentally deleted them. But today, i feel like i need to post something.

Its about my younger sister, mekpa. She is 21years old. Born on 21st May 1996. Her highest education is SPM. She's really not into studying.

Why i said, she's not really into studying?

I remember realizing she only know how to read well in her 2nd or 3rd year of secondary school. That was actually when she was 14 or 15 years old. That was quite late. Me myself know how to read well when i was 7 years old. I'm sure of that because, i remember my teacher said, "whoever can read this first, can go to the canteen". I was the first 5 person to get it right.

Back to my sister's story. When she was in primary school, she was in lower class. For example if there was 6 class, she was in 5th class. Same goes to her secondary school.

She doesnt get good results in her exams. I never heard my mom scolds her for getting low marks.

In her SPM, she got a result enough for her to enrolled in STPM. She goes to school but then she quit. She said, she cant handle studying anymore. My mom gave her permission. I'm sure, my mom know that, my sister cant do studying anymore. I mean go to school, open her books, meet teachers, comes back home, do homeworks, sleeps, wakes up and do that again.

Then my mom got her into sewing class under PAS. She graduated from there. She even had a convocation ceremony. Then she stayed at home for a few months. She tried to consult mom to let her apply to work at the supermarket. Well, my mom dont want her offspring to work at a supermarket as a promoter. Then my mom sent my sister to work at a jeans repair shop near the town. She went there. On the first day, i saw her face. Seriously.. that was the face of a girl who was lost. The face of a girl who is confused. The face of a girl who is disappointed with herself. She seriously dont like it!! It all showed on her face. And i dont like it too. I dont like looking at her..i dont know how to describe in words.

There was one day when i asked my parents to make ketupat. There was certain steps to folds the leaves to make it. My mom, dad, mekpa and i did it. It was mekpa and my first attempt. I failed many times. But i spontaneously do it until i successfully made it. But i realized the look on mekpa face. Her hands was shaking so bad. Her eyes went red. Then her tears fall down. She stop and said, she cant do it. At that particular moment, i realized she was someone who cant handle pressure. She gave up so easily.

Then, about 4 months ago, my mom enrolled her into sewing class that required her to go to prepare for a few months of training in Kelantan and undergo a 1 year practical in Penang. She passed the preparations in Kelantan.

2 months ago, she went to Penang. At that time i was at Machang, Kelantan. Then 1 month after she went there, i got a news that i'm going to Penang too. I told mekpa. And she laugh happily. When we met at the bus station. I saw her face. God, she was sad. She was already thin since she was young. But now, she looks thinner. She told me how her superior mad at her for doing works slowly. She was forced to finish sewing clothes within minutes. Her superior wanted her to work fast. But she cant. Her superior ask her to learn how to use new machine within 3 days. She failed to master it.

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Enough with that.

Last hari raya haji, it was actually last week, i met her at home. She talk less.

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This evening at my working place, my supervisor(k.anis), my staffs(k.julia, k.imah n k.julie) and i was talking. The conversation went like this.

K.anis: k.anis hang ni stress tau, tapi bos bukan nak paham, dia tak dok kat tempat k.anis. dia tak rasa apa yang k.anis rasa (dia langgar bontot kereta orang, suami dia eksiden, patah tulang pipi, luka sana sini, anak kena sawan, mak sakit buah pinggang, kena selalu dialisis, ayah baru meninggal, family dok kongkong segala sudut, tak boleh wat keputusan sendiri) setiap orang ada masalah sendiri.

K.julia: haa betul tu. Semua orang ada masalah masing2

K.imah: k.imah ada masalah kewangan

(Aku xtau apa masalah aku, so aku terpikir, aku single mingle lagi ni!!!)

Aku: k.juli, kita ada masalah jodoh xsampai2 ni macam mana k.juli???

Galak mereka berketawa disitu.

K.imah: nor umur berapa dah?

Aku: 35

K.julia: mengarut la hang ni nor!!!

K.imah: kalau setakat umur 25 tu relax la nor,muda lagi. Jodoh akan sampai la nanti.

Aku: k.imah!!!!nor gurau jer, xyah la siries..hehe

Tamat la disitu..

But then i keep thinking, i have no money problem. I pay my debt with ptptn, i never failed to give money to my parents, i give some money to the poor, i save some of my money. I still have extra money in my bank account. No, i'm not rich. I'm far from being rich. But for now, i have no money problem.

Then when it comes to works, i admit, i'm not good with two of the current staffs. Other staffs said, i irritated them because i dont understand what they're saying. But, well, i'm someone who is easy to let it go. And i can easily ignore useless things. I cut off useless things. I cut off useless people in my life too.

Friendship? I have my favorite best friend. I only have one best friend. Her name is Farah Zahar. She knows almost all my good news or bad news. I know all her stories too. We share opinions a lot. I have a lot of friend who come in and went out of my life. Lots of them. They were just, friends. So, i have no friendship problem.

Family? No. I have nothing to say about my family. i just wish to have a better communication with my so called sister in law. Others are just fine.

What more?

Nothing! My life is complete! Wait, i'm waiting for the right person to be my whole life partner. Hahahahahahaha.. i'm sure, one day, he will come.

But then when i reached home after work just now, i saw my sister's messages. She said, her superior is going to kick her out because she do things slowly.they give her 3 weeks to improve. The superiors already ignore her work. She said it was hard for her. She was embarrassed to face her friends. She got no one to talk to. She asked me to always advised her to be strong. She wants me to text her everyday to keep her on tract.

I will sis!!!

I will!!!

I will always pray the best for you. I got your back. I'll help you as much as i can. I promise.

Please stay calm and ignore bad things people say.

Ya Allah permudahkan segala urusan adik aku.

K goodnight