Abscess on my body-a gross yet satisfying

Assalamualaikum.

Here is a story about my journey facing with 4th time abscess.

In malay we called it as bisul.

(1st time with abscess)

I can't really remember the exact story about it, because that one i just let it disappear by itself. I don't even know it was abscess. But i remember the feeling of pain. Really sharp pain. It was in July or August 2015.

(2nd time with abscess)

This one happened when i started working at Kota Bharu. In the beginning i endure the pain, still not knowing it was abscess. I went to a pharmacy asking for some antibiotic and swelling. But it won't show any effect to me. Then one morning, i decided to meet a doctor. Near my rented room. When i'm trying to take a shower, suddenly i'm collapsing. Quickly i went to the bed before i fell to the wet floor in the bathroom. Then i realized, i don't take any food the day before. I forced myself to drive to the nearby clinic. Met the doctor. The doctor is a men. God! The abscess is at my anus.ermm.not anus. I don't know. Then the doctor declared, "it was abscess!!!"..at that moment, i was relieved. I thought it was some kind of cancer, tumor or anything bigger than abscess. Then the doctor shot the ...ermm..the you know,,,aku dibius cinta .yes. aku dibius. Then dia sedut aku punya nanah guna picagari. Picagari pertama penuh dengan nanah berwarna kuning kehijauan, picagari kedua dah mula nampak darah. Lega. Bila bangun dari katil tu, terus hilang rasa sakit. Aku pon terus pergi kerja. Esoknya raya haji. So lepas kerja aku drive balik kampung. Sampai rumah, lepas borak2 dengan parents pasal rumah sewa tu, aku masuk bilik. Buka seluar, pergh!!!!!basah dengan nanah. Bau dia ya Allah. Seriously aku cakap, lagi busuk dari ..erm..xtawla..tapi sangat busuk hokeyh. N nanah masih keluar membuak2. Banyak gila tisu aku guna nak sapu nanah tu. Esoknya aku xpegi pon solat raya haji. Huhuhu. Mak aku suruh makan cili pahit. Well, aku makan 1 kali jer, tapi lebih 50biji rasanya.

(3rd time with abscess)
My third time with abscess is in January this year. I just got back from Kepala Batas, Penang and was going to work at Kuala Besut, Terengganu. I can feel the pain in the exact same area. But still, i want to calm myself down to think that it was not abscess. I hold the pain, until i can't take it anymore. I ask the staff to buy me some medicine from nearby pharmacy. But the pain won't go away. I decided to go to the nearby clinic. The place named Klinik Perdana Kuala Besut. Well, the bad thing about the clinic is just, the doctor is a man. Whatever. I can't take the pain anymore. He shot the antibiotic at my hip while saying, " you will not get any more abscess in the future by taking this". I trust that words. Then he slice a bit of the abscess, and nanah keluar membuak, aku tengok doktor and nurses kalut dok sapu nanah yang keluar tu, dengan bau yang superb busuk tu. Fuhh. I salute you all guys. Thank you. Lepas nanah yang keluar dengan sendirinya tu habis, doktor tu tekan kuat giler bagi nanah tu keluar lagi. Ya Allah yang ni memang sakit nak mampus.wush!!!
Selesai yang tu, aku balik tempat kerja. Ingatkan da clear, tapi masih ade kesan2 nanah yang masih keluar. Fuhh. Habis seluar kerja aku.

The weeks went so fast. Then suddenly one day....

(4th time with abscess)

I was so confident that the abscess won't be getting near me anymore. But the last 4 days give a heartbreak. Slowly i felt  some pain near the same place. I really thought, it was something else. Then the next day, i was having some fever. My whole body felt weak. I had a headache. I can't move fast. I was so lazy. Then the abscess seem getting bigger. I asked around among the staffs. Looking for female doctor. Found one. A bit far. But worth it. I went there, met her, she take a look at my abscess, she is not that friendly. But it's okay. She's doing her job. She said "bisul awak ni belum masak lagi, saya tak boleh nak buang nanah dalam tu, saya dapat rasa yang benda ni sampai ke dalam, awak kena pergi hospital, jumpa pakar sakit puan, and ada bilik bedah"
Lebih kurang la. Xde la sebijik macam tu. And that was yesterday actually. I drive to my working place, give my mc letter to the hq and continue to drive to HUSM.

At HUSM, luckily, i met a female doctor too. She tell me the same thing, "bisul awak ni tak masak lagi ni, saya bagi antibiotik, n ubat tahan sakit, awak habiskan antibiotik ni"..aku ingat sampai situ jer. Lepas tu dia kol sape tah aku dengar dia cakap "general surgery" Lepas tu dia cakap kat aku, "minggu depan awak datang sini semula, pergi dekat SOPD. AKU AKAN DIBEDAH!!!

Balik umah, hmmm. Bila jumpe jer mak aku, dia terus panggil ade la orang kampung ni, dia tukang urut, dia jugak buat air tawar.. pendek kata orang panggil dia tok bomoh la. Don't worry. Aku tengok dia tak pernah miss solat kat surau sebelah rumah aku n jadi bilal. So, dia buat air tawar (air biase yang dibacakan ayat2 tertentu). Time aku nak minum, aku kena selawat ke atas nabi. Then dia watkan beras ape tah, tapi kena rendam dalam air tawar tu dalam 10minit n blender. N tampal dekat bisul tu. Tengah malam aku sedar dari tido, sakit menyerang, aku telan ubat tahan sakit,tapi sakit tak hilang, aku ambik air beras,,tampal kat situ. .Masya Allah. Sampai ke pagi, aku tidur lena. Pagi nya pulak, lepas sarapan, aku makan roti n telan ubat n sambung tidor, nak jalan2 tak boleh, sebab bila berdiri, badan akan bagi tekanan kat bisul tu, SAKIT!!!so aku tidor. Sedar2, mak aku nak comor perahan daun setawar. Masya Allah sekali lagi... aku tidor sampai pukul 12. Hahaahahhahahah. Tapi lepas daun setawar da habis, aku sakit lagi. Aku pikir, aku kena pergi klinik ni, aku mesti buang nanah ni! Lepas mandi aku kejut mak aku cakap nak pergi klinik. Mak aku suruh pergi hospital jer. Aku malas menunggu sebenarnya. Masa tu dalam pukul 1.45, lepas solat semua, aku siap2 nak ke hospital, tengok2, period pulak dah...habisla, malu la aku nak tunjuk kat doktor dengan period nya lagi. Aku tekad jugak nak pergi. Aku pakai jubah, siap2 nak pergi panas enjin kereta, tiba2, aku rasa belakang jubah aku basah, aku rasa betis aku basah, aku sentuh belakang jubah aku. Aku pikir, takkan la bocor sebab period kot???so, aku cium tangan aku. Busuk yang tak tergambar!!!Bisul aku pecah nokk!!!habis basah kangkang aku. Terus aku cakap kat mak aku. Mak aku terus cari tisu. Adik2 aku 2 orang time tu cakap, "busuknyer!!!" Yang kecik sikit tu pulak cakap, "bau macam taik!!!" Hahahaha. Dari jauh pon boleh bau nokkss" masuk bilik, mak aku sapukan tisu.  Lame jugak. Aku tanya mak aku, "takpe ke ma, busuk ni". Mak aku cakap, "takpe, nanti ma tua, xlarat nanti, nor kena buat lebih teruk lagi dari ni".  Lepas tu air mata aku  mengalir2 bukan kerana sakit, tapi kerana hati yang terharu, sebab my mom is right beside me, helping me all her best to make sure i'm fine.

Banyak kata2 dia yang memuji macam mana mudahnya dia jaga aku yang kurang songeh berbanding kakakku. Keh keh keh.

Mak aku cakap, badan aku ni lebih terima ubat2 kampung dari ubat doktor. But i will use both.

Because i trust both

Goodnight

Gross because it smell the worst. Satisfying because, i can feel mother's love.

The girls who start to pray.

Assalamualaikum..today i'm going to share about..my staff..my colleagues.

I told you. "Pergila ceruk mana pon di dunia ni, orang islam yang tak solat berlambak"..

I told you before too, "aku bukan orang baik, kadang-kadang aku terbabas solat, kadang-kadang aku mengumpat, kadang-kadang...well, setiap hari aku buat dosa"

Tapi, takde undang-undang yang mengatakan, "orang berdosa dilarang memberi nasihat"..... kan???

Aku buat dosa hari-hari, tapi aku nak orang sekeliling aku pon berubah ke arah yang lebih baik.

Back to the real story.

Aku kan baru transfer. Sampai di tempat baru ni, supervisor pesan, "kalau staf nak solat, bagi dorang bergilir, jangan ramai2, tapi tak perlu risau, berapa kerat jer yang solat"

Their names are ( confidential ) kekeke...

Tapi bilangan dia aku boleh cakap iaitu seramai 5 orang daripada 12 orang.

Ramai yang tak solat pulak.hmm

Tempat solat kitorang di tingkat 1. One fine day, aku nampak sorang akak ni tiba-tiba solat. Time tu aku masih tertanya2, "akak ni memang selalu solat ke, harini baru nak solat?" Aku diam jer. Lepas tu aku pergi tanya dekat sorang staf yang memang selalu solat, dia cakap, "tu 1st time dia tengok akak tu solat". Whatever it is, i was proud of her. Big clap!!!!

Another day, dengan sengajanya aku tanya sorang staf tu:

Aku: adodo dah solat ker?

Adodo: adodo period sekarang ni kak.

Aku: pastu, sebelum ni adodo solat x?

Adodo: ermm, ermm, adodo tak solat kat sini kak. Adodo solat kat rumah jer.

Aku: kenapa macam tu? Adodo taw tak, nanti akhirat, Allah hisab solat kita dulu taw? Benda2 lain semua lepas tu. Bla bla bla...

Lepas dia habes period, dia mula solat. Walaupun kadang2 dia tinggal jugak.

And today. Sorang lagi mula solat...the story went like this.

Aku tengah tengok2 info dekat meja skype (hanya assistant n supervisor jer boleh dok situ). The conversation was like this....

Adidi: kak, boleh tak kak jadi cashier sekejap?orang nak naik solat jap.

N, imagine my shocked face!!~~i look at her blankly. Seeking for explanation.

Adidi: kenapa kak terkejut kak?

Aku: siries la adidi nak solat ni?

Adidi: series la kak. Kenapa kak tak percaya?

Aku: dah sebelum ni tak nampak pon adidi solat.

Adidi: orang solat la kak, kak jer tak terserempak ngan orang tengah solat tu.

Aku: eyyy, betul ke tak ni adidi?

Adidi: betul kak...

N dia benar2 pergi solat. Thanks ya Allah.

Derr, lepas tu aku tanya lagi staf yang memang solat tu,

Aku: betul ke adidi solat sebelum ni?

The girl: mana ada kak, tu la first time orang tengok.

The truth is, i used to give a loud advice to adodo in front of adidi about how Allah would judge our solat.

I'm not saying that i'm the reason they start to pray. Nope. But i like it very much when they start to pray when i'm here.

Derr, doakan staf2 aku yang lain pon akan solat jugak derr. Lembutkan hati mereka. Aku dah nak kena transfer ke cawangan lain pulak dah ni.tinggal berapa hari jer ni. Hmmm

I will miss them

Goodnight

Again..something that i should praise about "THEM"

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

My words are not good. I have no talent to write perfectly.

But i enjoy writing.

Hari ni cerita pasal mereka (staf2 zonria kuala besut lagi).

Petang tadi, sambil tunggu jam tunjuk pukul 4.30 p.m, aku borak2 dengan eliss. Cashier di kedai tu.

Bermula dari topik "sedapnya makan nasi lauk ikan bakar, dengan nasi panas n budu+tempoyak+cili+asam limau" hingga ke "hantu kat stor atas" kemudian eliss tiba2 cakap:

Eliss: cantiknya gelang kak nor, macam gelang orang berubat

Aku gelak jerla mula2 tu. Aku tak teringin lagi nak beli gelang ke rantai emas ke cincin emas ke. Tak mampu.

Tapi, aku memang dah lama perati dorang ni. Ramai yang pakai emas, gelang or cincin. N aku memang tak teragak2 nak tanya, contohnya, "nadia dah tunang ke?" "Pqah dah tunang ke?"

Back to eliss, lepas dia cakap pasal gelang tu...

Aku: alah eliss, ni gelang dapat free jer girlfriend adik orang bagi kat dia. Dia tak guna, orang la pakai. Tu gelang elis tu, mak ke abah eliss bagi?

Eliss: mana ada kak! Jangan harap mak abah eliss nak beli untuk eliss. Eliss guna duit gaji eliss jer.

Bla bla bla dia cerita pasal mak dia gadai barang kemas dia. Hahaha.  Bersemangat.

Aku ingatkan eliss ni dari keluarga senang. Nak apa pon boleh dapat. Rupanya tak. Anak sulong kan. Pandai dia berdikari.

Aku ni takde langsung, LANGSUNG niat nak beli gelang or cincin emas tu. Seriously, aku tak minat. Walaupun aku tahu beli emas bagus untuk masa depan. Dalam kepala aku sekarang ni, aku nak pastikan kerja aku confirm dulu, nak wat plan gaji, i mean, budget. Berapa aku patut spend on ptptn(mula bayar bulan lepas), berapa untuk ASB(masih dalam perancangan, untuk tabung masa depan), berapa untuk bayar kereta (ma abah aku asyik nak suruh aku beli kereta jer, padahal setakat pembacaan aku ni, beli kereta ni membebankan untuk graduan yang baru bekerja ni. Karang kerja ke mana, bayar bulan2 tergendala, walaupun hakikatnya aku nak ada kereta sendiri), survey rumah (da berpuluh kali jugak aku baca, baik kumpul slip gaji, wat pinjaman beli rumah kos rendah, bagi sewa kat orang, then baru beli kereta. Orang bayar sewa rumah, aku boleh guna duit tu untuk bayar ansuran kereta baru aku).. hmm.. in Deep thought.

Ok..habis deep thought.  Back to the kids, i mean the staffs.

For example eliss la kan. Aku perati dia ni, bukan budak  tak pandai pon. Dia saja jer tak nak sambung belajar.

Lagi sorang, aziey. Aziey ni pon spesis boleh pergi jauh kalau dia nak belajar. Tapi dia pernah cerita kat aku, dia tak boleh nak sambung belajar sebab dia kesian kat ma abah dia nak kena tanggung dia belajar. Dia kerja kat zonria tu, atleast sekarang ni da ada motor sendiri. Tak lama lagi dah nak habis bayar dah.

Let me list down the staffs there.

The supervisor: maziani. Rarely accept other's opinion. Not a rules follower too because she's quite flexible. She want simple things.

The assistant supervisor: bariyyah (i'm replacing her as assistant supervisor while she's on maternal leave)

The trainee assistant supervisor(it's me!!!)

Amy-sometimes her words can be rude even when she's planning to joke.

Bayah-a 22 years old mother of a 10months daughter. A hardworking staff. Quite meticulous.

Syuriaain-a senior who is too proud of her seniority. Love to quarrel with other staffs. Have loud voice. But a good worker. Love to help others in need.

Eliss- easily get mad over simple things especially involving problematic customers. Quite talkative when she's in good mood.

Hasmawani-a 27 years old mother of two daughters. A good mother and wife from my point of view. A good worker too. Accept others opinion. Know how to make decision.

Aziey-love to do nothing at the corner. Well mannered. When she start her work, she's one of the perfectionist.

Nadia-love to help others. Love to give orders. A cashier who is quite meticulous. Rarely having problems regarding money.

Aisyah-a 19 years old mother of 2 years old daughter. Very talkative. Quite rude. Not a rules follower. Always have excuses when given orders. I can't see anything good in her. Well she does have good qualities. I must have not seen it yet.

Piqah- god, she's the one who brighten up my day at work. She love to do body gag. Talk sweet but extremely funny. The supervisor love her, obviously. She is not a pro cashier yet. Always have problem dealing with money.

Nor- well i have a deep thought about her. A good staff of course. Rarely done any mistake. Not a good talker to me. Or is it because my name is the same as her? (NOR)

Zura-the junior at the supermarket. Quite problematic. Does not obey rules firmly. Want me to hear her talking. But i always think, "she never understand what i'm trying to say", she always cheating. Tell lies. I used to get mad at her(politely) for lying. Have problems with other staffs too.

DONE!!!!